You know my name not my story.

This post comes from the heart.

Many people in the world, most probably including you and myself, easily judge people by the way they act or how they look or things they do. It may be that it annoys you, antagonises you or you just don't like it. But you don't know their story. So I thought that, maybe you guys could be judging me, you know my name, but you don't know my story... why did I start this blog? Why do I hide away? Why are there hardly any pictures of myself on here? Why am I self-conscious?

I am fed up of this. I thought why not explain everything from the start. One of my goals this year was to be brave and face up to some of my fears... So I’m going to do just that. I am going to tell you who I am? Why I have a fear of certain people and just in general a bit about me and the reason why I won't let bullies control my life anymore.

My name is Abbie, however I was born Abigail. My name on here... well I normally just sign off with a heart however obviously by the URL my online name used to be absterhamster. This came from my grandma because whenever I eat I stuff it into my checks (tmi I know sorry!) and she always calls me her little hamster so that's where it came from! Yet beginning of 2015 I felt like a needed a change. So my blog was re-designed and I changed my username. This gave away slightly more about me... my name. I felt ever so proud of myself because this was a big step for me, owning up to who I really was online. Yet I still don't have the courage to post a photo directly onto my blog.

I started to write my blog because I felt like I could be truly honest with you guys. I feel like nobody is going to judge me on the way I look, if I wear make-up how I do certain things. This is the main reason I am self-conscious. My blog was, still is even my place to escape. A place where I can be myself without anyone knowing who I am. Being anonymous meant no-one could say anything to me at school or judges me; I guess I just liked the feeling. When I started my blog I’d get a few reads on each post, then as I wrote more and more it went up. Until now when more people read each blog post than there is in my year group of 12 classes at school, that number is unbelievable to me. This made me realise that if people are enjoying my writing, why not make it more personal.

My main scare for sharing my identity I touched on above. Bullies. I was bullied every day for around 3 years. That is one of the hardest things I've ever typed. I was judged on my skin, how I looked, and not wearing 'designer' clothes. You name it; it was probably said towards me. Even though it has stopped, every now and then a few things will be said to me, or I’ll get evil glances across the classroom. Yet I’ve now managed to grow to ignore this. I don't want childish behaviour this year, I want an education. I want to do well so that I can follow my dreams. I want to succeed in life.

I feel like this blog post wouldn't be complete without me telling you a little more about myself. Abigail Jessica Turner. That is me... formally known as Abbie. I have brown eyes with brown hair. Yes I’m boring looking! I go to the second largest school in the UK, and have the most amazing best-friends in the world. I love cats especially my own! Monty is a cross between a Tabby and a Manx; he is the fluffiest most adorable little man in the world! Anyway back to me... I have 5 brothers in one way or another, 2 half-brothers (5, 7), 2 Step-brothers (18, 15) and one 'normal' brother who is 13! My parents clearly aren't together. They got divorced when I was 6 but that doesn't matter right now.

I hope that you've enjoyed learning a bit more about me and into my personal life... I guess I can’t end my blog posts with a heart anymore...

"Don't let anyone stop you, from doing the one thing you love"

-Abigail x

 

 

 

I've been blogging for a year....?

Hellooo!

 

I think this is a bit weird, because when I started my blog I never thought that I would be able to keep it up for a whole year?! I started my blog at 2am in the morning of Friday the 7th march 2014  because I couldn't sleep and for some reason I kept going and I love it!

 

I just wanted to do this short post to say thank you to everyone who comments on my posts and reads them and supports me because it always makes me smile when people comment telling me that my post was lovely, or they think the same as me. I don't know I just love reading the comments, so thank you!

 

I feel like we should be having a romantic meal, candlelit, like our one year anniversary relationship, yet through a blog post? Is that weird? I'm going to leave this weirdness, that I don't even know what it is has turned into, good bye!!!!!!

 

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Where have I been...oops?!

Hellloooo!

 

I probably should start by saying happy new year! You are probably thinking why on earth haven't I been active/posting on my blog. Well..... I have gone back to school and been slammed with exams:( So you can blame my teachers at school! However it is probably also because I have started on a new series on Netflix called Pretty Little Liars AND I AM SO ADDICTED AND EXCITED FOR THE END! I also have been having ski lessons, because I am going skiing in Killington and then shopping in New York, SO I'M EXCITED AND SCARED AND OH MY GOSH!

 

However I am now back into the routine of normal Wednesday blog posts, so STAY WITH ME PLEASE BECAUSE I AM STILL HERE BUT I'M SUPER DUPER BUSY:(

 

 

I LOVE YOU GUYS,

 

 

<3

Blogmas day 24: MY MESSAGE TO YOU!

HELLOOO EVERYONEEE!

 

OH MY ITS CHRISTMAS TOMORROW WHAT. NO. OMG. YES. WHAT.

 

This is my message to you all as a goodbye from daily blogging!?

 

I wish every single one of you, no matter where in the world you are a lovely Christmas! Spend some time with family and appreciate the whole day because some children are less fortunate. Some places in the world this is the first time they may have Christmas without a relative and my thoughts go out to them, and I think we should all appreciate what we have!

 

Whether you are new to my blog or have been here for a long time then I am so grateful no matter what! Thank you. Have a lovely Christmas and appreciate everything! Love you all!

 

 

 

My blogs will be going back to being up every Wednesday from now on, so see you then!

 

  

 

 

<3 

Blogmas day 16: My cold walk to school!

HELLO EVERYONE!

 

9 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS YAYAYAYAYAY!!!

 

I thought that I would share with you something that I do everyday and is 1.8 miles long! This is my journey to school. Now that it is winter time my journey just looks ever so lovely when it is a crispy morning so I thought why not share with you!

 

So I leave my house at 7:45 and arrive at school at about 8:10/8:15 which is a good time in the winter because you don't have to stand around in the cold! 

 This morning it was quite foggy and still a bit dark as I went on my journey to school. I normally listen to my playlist on spotify until I meet my friend  at the end of the bridge!

It was still quite dark this morning so the moon was still up and I thought that it looked adorable!

As I then walked along the main road, it started to brighten up with a bit of a pink sky!

'Red sky in the morning... Shepherds warning!!'

I know tht this post was a little weird but hey.. I'm weird so we match (:

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Blogmas day 5: Winter skin care routine!

HEELLOOO EVERYONEE!

 

ITS 20, YES 20 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS!

 

For day five into December I thought that I should share with you my winter skin care routine! I wear make-up everyday to school ( foundation, mascara, powder e.t.c) and majority of it stays on, which I am very thankful for. However I have to take it all off in the evening before bed, and this is how I do it!

 

Before I take of my make-up I like to make sure my hands are clean to not spread any dirt, and at the minute I am loving the Carex fun edition! I love the colours of this collection and the scents are just divine! My current addiction is the strawberry lace one!

 

So I start of by removing my make-up with cotton wool pads and the Nivea Extra gentle eye make-up remover. I think this is quite good because it takes of your make-up without irritating it, or leaving red marks behind. Also it contains Provitamin B5, and doesn't leave a greasy stain afterwards. However it doesn't remove my Benefit They're real mascara ):

 

Next I take my Liz Earle Hot Cloth, Cleanse and Polish, and I love this! I won't go into detail because I wrote a blog post all about it and you can see it by clicking here!

 

Next I take sudocrem, and I find that this works amazing on any spots because it reduces the size, then turns them into little flaky bits of skin ( I know it sounds disgusting but it works wonders!!) and this then just disappears when I wash my face. I find it also helps if you have little rashes on your skin because while clearing spots it also clears up rashes!

 

I hope that you have liked this post.. I thought why not do something I haven't done yet, so I did! Make sure you follow me on blogger to find out when im posting, if it isn't Blogmas or like me you are nosey and just want to look! You can simply find out any contact information on the tab at the top, and don't hesitate to talk to me and just chat via email if you are in need and wanting to talk to someone.

 

 

 

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Blogmas day 2: Favourite things about Christmas!

HEYYO EVERYONE

23 DAYS UNTIL CHRISTMAS IM SO EXCITED NOW!

I was supposed to have a proper post for today and yesterday however my laptop broke and so therefore I had to create something completely different! But it should be working by tomorrow so then I go back to normal (:

So I thought for this post that I should write my top 5 things that I love about Christmas because who doesn't love it! So Im going to narrow it down..... HERE GOES:

1) The Music- I love Christmas music because it is so cheery and jolly and can always make me smile!

2) Spending time with family!- I love the fact that family from all over the country and globe travel and make a real effort to see each other.

3) The weather- I love British weather... Yes it's cold and wet but I wouldn't swap it for anything... I'm secretly hoping for a white Christmas this year!

4) I love going out and buying people's presents and then seeing their faces!

5) I love Christmas food!- I don't like roast dinners very much however the one time I do love the food is Christmas and that's because of Christmas pudding and mince pies and Christmas cake!!

These are 5 Simple things that I love about Christmas! I hope you have enjoyed this short and sweet post that is giving you an idea about me and hoping you to learn more about me!

See you tomorrow....

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